“Attachment theory argues that infants are biologically programmed to form an emotional bond with their caregiver, and an attachment figure should act to provide physical security and comfort to an otherwise helpless infant.“ This concept is something that has been discussed with my psychologist and I when we are speaking about my lack of attachment…
One Year On
It is wild to think that it has only been one year since I opened up about my mental illness and posted it for the world to read. I remember the moment I shared my blog on my social media for the first time; I was panicky thinking that others would perceive me as weak…
Why You Can’t See Mental Illness
If you haven’t gathered already, mental illness is a sickness within the brain. It makes sense that the initial symptoms of these diseases, start inside the mind; both physically and mentally. http://notcrazyorg.tumblr.com/post/66985539438/the-captions-in-this-photo-perfectly-illustrate Making it hard to notice & diagnose in the early stages, where the physically visual symptoms haven’t been in operation long enough to…
Suicide Victims Aren’t Selfish
They say suicide is the easy way out, that it is selfish, self-centred, and doesn’t resolve the issue; only makes it worse. But do the people saying that, been in that situation where they believe that those around them, parents, children, and friends, would be better off without them? Where they believe that all they are…
Stress Vs. Anxiety
There is a difference. Before anxiety comes stress, which comes and develops from many factors in our lives such as work, family, and school pressures. However, stress is caused by a present tension circumstance, whereas, anxiety is a fear that continues to strike panic even after the circumstance is gone. It is normal for an…
Mental Illness isn’t Black & White, & Why Recovery Might Never Happen
I like to describe what life is like with a mental illness by saying it isn’t black and white, but colour. However, the colour is the same one you get when you mix up every colour that exists, and no matter how hard you try to stir all the colours together, there will always be…
Do I Forgive Him?
Over two months and nine blog posts later and we are at the end. I started this series not knowing why my anxiety and depression are the way they are. Not understanding how and why the terrible small factors of my childhood, built up and blasted in my adolescence into severe mental illnesses. In particular…
Why “What You Are Worrying About Now, Won’t Matter in a Few Years” is False
They say that what you are worrying about now, won’t matter in a few months, a year or even five years. I remember in 2012 having my first intense experience with depression and suicide, and now, in 2018, it’s only worse. I remember in 2012 having an intense experience with depression and suicide. In that year,…
Why Is It Hard to Move on If You’re Not Over It?
I have been out of the harmful and dangerous environment I grew up in for one year and ten months now, but the depression and anxiety of being in that house, with that person, is still sticking around. Not only is it just sticking about, but it has only become worse. Why? I do not…
I’m Wired Not to Show Emotions
The type of environment that I grew up in was one where any emotion of mine was mocked, and as a young toddler, I would cry often. Getting teased and sneered at for something so human and expected at the age I was, still has a towering effect on me today. I’m wired not to…